“The years between eighteen and twenty-eight are the hardest, psychologically. It’s then you realize this is make or break, you no longer have the excuse of youth, and it is time to become an adult – but you are not ready.”—Helen Mirren. (via neuers)
Every time I start up again with losing weight and eating healthy, I do well for about a month then the voice inside my head starts all over again. My ED mentality slowly creeps back into my mind and my purging tendencies, back into my life. I know I can do this in a healthy way but I always take it to the extreme. I don’t know how I keep relapsing. I guess it’s the feeling of control I get, when everything else is out of control. With that feeling also comes the loneliness, the emptiness, and the hopelessness. I guess I’m just addicted to the pain.